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Unconditional

Don't tell me I've potential, or what you want from me Love should be elemental, cause it should always be. Don't love that you could mold me into what you want some day Just in your arms enfold me and tell me it's okay. Don't love me cause I'm weaker, or cause I need you there. Some times I may be meeker, and other times I'll dare. Don't love me if I'm faithful, then hate me if I roam If you love me truly, I'll always come back home.  It's not because you love me that you strike me when I stray You want to be above me, you want to make me stay. Don't tell me it's your duty, don't treat me like a chore Don't say you love my beauty, love what is at my core. How can it be you love me, yet don't know who I am? In a mold you may shove me, and no matter how you cram I won't fit the shape and then I'll break the mold.

In memory of Destiny Lester

The earth revolves without you, To dawn another day The moon still brings the tide And sends him on his way. The night sky stars still twinkle, They have not lost their glow Time marches on, to that same beat As if he didn't know. The spring will bring her flowers All wond'rous to behold And though we may not like it All flowers one day fold. They must make way for autumn When leaves begin to fall Though some leave before others It happens to us all. And winter, although barren And cold beyond belief Must spread her icy fingers To help us through our grief.  So when that babe comes crying And wailing to our arms We openly embrace them Accepting all their charms. We could just mourn the fallen And refuse to heed spring's song But if we close our hearts off We might as well be gone. I'll live life and embrace it Just as you would have done Hard as it is to see past The setting of your sun.

Tragedy

He only seeks the pleasure of the ride little thinks he of costs that he might pay. Off he jaunts, no matter night or day. He thinks he's safe, if luck is on his side. He grants to some the power to destroy, in what might be the blinking of an eye. They look both ways or so they try, But still they cannot see this boy. He rides atop a coffin with two wheels never knowing what may be his fate. If someone doesn't see, it is too late and he or she a priceless treasure steals. All is lost because of a mistake. Too late for something to be done. One didn't see, another one is gone. Tragedy it is, for heaven's sake. So many gather weeping for the life unlived, and all the years this boy had left. So many tears, he left behind a baby and a wife.

Fear

Fear wraps its tentacles around my heart. Fear of not doing enough... not being enough... Even tighter, till my breath is gone and I cannot move. It holds me, its captive. "Fight the deadly serpent," part of me insists. "Do not let this evil win." but the fear is too strong. "I will never let you go!" it cries. "When you want to open up, I'll be there... waiting. I grow stronger when you falter. I rejoice in your mistakes. I will always prevent you from pursuing your dreams. I will always oppose you, you can never defeat me. For I am you!" Again it squeezes to prove its power over me. I shudder and shrink into myself. No one else can see this demon... my fear. "Stop." they tell me. "It's silly to be scared." I know. There is nothing, waiting in the shadows. No dragon lies in wait beyond these walls, the walls I constructed to protect myself the walls I refuse to tear down, immobilized by fe

losing you

I didn't want to face losing you... even though I understood that nothing lasts forever. I didn't want to wake up one day to find that you were gone, out of my life forever. I didn't want to stop hearing your laugh or seeing you smile that sweet crooked smile. I didn't want to stop talking to you and hearing your reply... how I miss your advice. I never thought about how lonely my life would be without you... until you were gone. No matter how long it's been... I can still hear your voice, even though I won't ever again. Memories play like movies in my mind. The time we spent together. I cherish every minute I took for granted then. How I wish I could go back. I knew that it would happen. I knew that you would go. I just didn't want to face it. I told myself, that I would be okay. I told myself you were in a better place. It would have been selfish to make you stay. You were in pain I know. I'm sorry for a

The Game

When someone asks you "how's your day" you say: "Everything's okay." even when you're lying. ... Even when you want to cry you smile at them and meet their eyes. You never, ever, ever say "I need a hug, I need a friend." or: "The pain I feel's too much to bear. I could give up, I'm almost there." They smile and nod and say the same. It's all a part of this little game. They don't tell you: "My dad's in jail and I don't think we'll afford the bail. My house is messy, my job's a bust but I keep going, because I must." And you never know just what's inside, just what that painted on smile can hide even though you do the same.

Inside

crying on the inside, turmoil. fear. doubt. dying on the inside weary. sleepless. night. Every day a battle. fighting. for my. life. Every night a struggle. will this. never. end? Too much pain around me. the pain. I see. I feel. If only I could help them. I want. my hands. to heal. For all the good it does me, I bow. my head. to pray. But there is no answer. No one's. listening. anyway.